Carrying On and The Carrie Cotter Memorial Fund honor the memories of Carrie Cotter and James Cotter by raising awareness for mental healthcare and suicide prevention. These efforts include participating in walks for the American Foundation for Suicide Prevention and the National Alliance on Mental Illness, raising awareness for World Suicide Prevention Day, and raising money for the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline.
Please visit Cotter Memorial Donation Page to donate
or mail a check to:
Carrie Cotter Memorial Fund
c/o Austin Community Foundation
4315 Guadalupe Street, Suite 300
Austin, Texas 78751
100% of all donations go to National Suicide Prevention Lifeline.
Check out our calendar (Calendar) to learn more about what we are doing to help others and how you can be involved in our efforts. We have a Facebook page which shares our efforts, helpful mental health articles, quotes and scripture, and memories (CarryingOn). We also an Instagram page (Carrying On).
The short version of the story:
On 10/26/17 my life changed forever. At 10:40am, I received the worst call a parent could receive and learned that my beautiful, intelligent, 17 year old daughter had taken her own life, after years of being tortured by her brilliant mind. Carrie was what is known as twice exceptional. By definition, she had a genius level IQ and her ways of just knowing things amazed and baffled me. She could figure things out in seconds and she never forgot a single thing. She also struggled with mental illness her whole life, but more profoundly during her last 5 years. She fought ADHD, depression and anxiety (and there were indicators of something bigger going on in her mind but not fully diagnosed yet) with therapy, many different prescription medications, and an inpatient stay at a psychiatric facility. She worked with numerous therapists, psychiatrists, ER doctors, and hospitalists. She also self-medicated with substance abuse and cutting. She was tormented by her brilliant mind her whole life. But you would never know that. She would never show any weakness or vulnerability and she was very charming and outgoing. She knew how to look “fine” and worked hard to appear so. She loved, and she felt loved. She had many plans for the future, including graduating college at 19 and returning to Kenya to help free teen girls from being sold into marriage. In Carrie’s letter to us she used the phrase, “sleepy baby needs to sleep forever.” When we googled that (with quotes) right after her death, we got 1 result – the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline. I believe this was her way of asking us to help others, even if she, herself, had lost hope. That is why any donations made on this page will go to the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline.
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The short version of James’ story: Grief over the loss of his sister –> alcohol abuse –> anxiety and depression –> prescription meds (Nov 2018) –> 5 more meds (prescribed in Feb and March 2019) to combat the side effects of the original medication (even when I asked the doctor to wean him off of the original medication and treat him without medication. We only learned of the additional medications after his death.) + gaslighting by the psychiatrist –> complete personality change –> agitation, anger and panic –> erratic, impulsive, out-of-character behavior –> suicide. Absolutely makes NO sense to ANYone who knew James. James was a confident, smart, easy-going, personable young man who LOVED life (until he started taking medication). He was a leader in many different aspects of his life and was loved by everyone. We always said his greatest gift to our family was his ability to always make the best of any situation. In the spring of 2018 when talking about Carrie’s decision, his response to my statement that suicide is never an option was, “come on, mom. I think way too highly of myself to ever do that.” That was James! James had no mental health concerns at all throughout his life, until he started taking a prescription medication for anxiety. If you decide you need medication for your mental health, please do so under the close watch of a reputable doctor and if you have ANY suicidal thoughts, call your doctor and wean off them immediately. They can be addictive. I know that if James had never taken the first pill, he would still be with us.
Some social media posts will be on days when I feel strong and able to encourage others; other posts will be on days when I have trouble getting out of bed in the morning because my neverending pain has sidelined me. There are 2 constants: 1, I rely on God’s strength to help me through each day and 2, I miss my kids with every ounce of my being; that never goes away. I hope to convey to everyone that suicide is NEVER the answer. You are loved. Please Don’t lose Hope, Keep the Faith, Love One Another, Share Peace always.
Thank you for reading and supporting our efforts. Raising awareness about mental illness will lead to reducing the stigma surrounding it and more people will seek help and be cooperative with treatment and then the suicide rates will decrease. We want to help all those suffering from mental illness realize what God has promised: “For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you Hope and a future.” Jeremiah 29:11. This Bible verse was still hanging in Carrie’s dorm room on 10/26/17.
Your tax deductible donation will support the mission of the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline as they provide free and confidential emotional support to people in suicidal crisis or emotional distress 24 hours a day, 7 days a week. They are committed to to improving crisis services, and advancing Suicide Prevention by empowering individuals, advancing professional best practices, and building awareness by providing resources to the public.
The Carrie Cotter Memorial Fund was created and developed through a collaboration between the Austin Community Foundation (ACF), Tim Swett and Elizabeth and Larry Cotter. Please be assured that ALL donations received through the Carrie Cotter Memorial Fund web link will be 100% donated to the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline community (one of our donors is graciously covering the expenses imposed on the fund by ACF). ACF will be administrating the Fund webpage, providing donation confirmations, and transferring these donations in full to the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline organization.